Battles

Why do I keep doing things I don't want to do? I guess everyone has that one vice that is always pulling them down. The really sad part is that I'm completely aware of the pattern, but choose not to break it. Every time I rediscover the path I begin to dabble in that same struggle, just stepping to the side of the path occasionally, until I'm almost caught fast in the soft muddy shoulder. It amazes me how close the sludge is to the firm track. Then I begin the trudge out of the mud and back on the right course. This is different than those times when the right direction is difficult to see. On these side trips I can always see the correct course that I'm veering away from. I'm not lost I'm straying! Well, I'm trying to break the cycle. I've trudged back on course and am changing habits AGAIN to stay focused on the right bearing. "Know your enemy" is a popular saying, but you must also be aware that the enemy knows you and has a large arsenal to launch to keep you off course and out of the fight. He is fully aware of the fact that his war is lost, so he'll be satisfied with winning as many battles as possible. I'm not defeated! I've regrouped and am ready to rejoin the fight, scars and all!