Exsisting

I know I'm not very much fun to be around these days. My wife must really love me! I knew I had too much going on in my life so I made some changes to slow down. Now all I do is sit around and wonder what the hell I needed all this time for. I exsist. nothing more, nothing less. Mr. Mellancamp must have known what I'm feeling when he sang, "life goes on long after the thrill of living is gone." I really want to find joy in life's little pleasures, and I'm fully aware of all the blessings I have in my life, but I just have this desire to live a life of adventure with purpose. I want to be satisfied but for some reason satisfaction eludes me. My wife says I have a wandering spirit. Maybe... I just wish I knew where it was wandering to.